The Boy in the Tunnel

by Gardner Linn

 

21.

 

Halfway through the scream, Tim realized where he had seen the limping guy before: he was Taddlington Taft, the Republican columnist. Though Tim usually found Taft’s opinions laughably anachronistic, he had to admit that his latest column, about the death of Southern hospitality, did contain a few good points. Men should give up their seats on the bus to women, Tim thought, they just should; and women should allow men to open doors for them, to pay for dinner, to be the one to call and extend an invitation to a date. “The Southern gentleman should not be made to feel like a leering, knuckle-dragging chauvinist because he adheres to the customs of chivalry,” Taft had written, “nor should the Southern lady decline the offer of chivalry for fear of appearing unenlightened. In such turbulent times, it is only reasonable to suggest that some traditions remain traditions because they still have value.”

         

It was kind of weird to see Taft, who in his byline photo always looked so composed, so sure of himself, screaming red-eyed and ragged-throated into the chilly air, the breath of the scream lingering a moment before dissipating, before being replaced. Tim wanted to stop the screaming, to comfort Taft somehow, but he didn’t know how. This kind of anguish had until now been purely theoretical to Tim, the kind of thing you saw in a movie. Usually there were some doctors around with IVs full of morphine when someone was screaming this bad.

         

The scream died out and Taft took a rattly, sucking breath. Tim tried. “You’re Taddlington Taft, right? From the Ambassador?”

         

Fresh cold air in his lungs, Dave screamed again. The pain would not leave him, would not even go back into hiding. The pain had moved in and wanted to be friends. Best Friends Forever. The pain wrote its name in Dave’s yearbook in purple glitter ink, the pain and Dave both pricked their thumbs and pressed them together, letting the blood mingle, signifying how close they’d always be. The pain was going to organize his bachelor party and keep the stripper quiet about the stuff that never happened, honestly.

         

The pain was so great now that Dave couldn’t remember what it was like not to be in pain, and so the pain was now bearable. Dave thought how nice it was, in a way, to have a friend like this, one he knew would never leave him. That’s the way to look at it. Instead of an imposing, unwanted guest, the pain was a new partner for life, a friend to keep him company through all the dark times. He was hoping to make a friend like that in college. Dave smiled, still screaming, at the thought.

         

Tim saw the cracked grin spread on Taft’s face, and he decided, okay, his first impulse was right: this guy was nuts. A full-on Almond Joy. Taft was beyond any kind of help Tim could offer. He should probably just go find a phone, call 911 and be done with it. He was supposed to be at Yarrow in ten minutes anyway.

         

As soon as Tim decided on this course of action, Taft stopped screaming. The aftersound of it hung in the air in front of them, then warmed and disappeared.

         

Dave looked at Tim, at the terrified expression on Tim’s face. He held up his deformed right hand between their faces.

         

“Can you see what he did?” Dave said.

         

“Yes.”

         

“Then it’s not just me.” Dave put his hand down in his lap. It still hurt, but now that he and the pain understood each other, he didn’t have to make such a big deal about it.

         

“I think I should call a doctor,” Tim said, tensing to stand.

         

“No. You don’t have to leave. I’ll be gone in a second. I have a meeting to get to.”

         

“How did it happen?”

         

Dave poked a testing finger at the broken ring finger of his right hand. The contact sent fresh tendrils of pain up his arm. He clenched his jaw and his face shuddered. “I don’t remember. I have to get to my meeting. The fly died but he told me what to do.”

         

Beyond deranged. Tim didn’t know how he could help this guy. “You’re Taddlington Taft, right?”

         

“My name’s Dave.”

         

“I liked your column this week.”

         

Dave turned his glistening, bloodshot eyes on Tim. Tim could sort of see a speech being formed behind those eyes, part admonition, part confession, full of pent-up fury; but Dave just looked back down at his hand.

         

“Thanks. What’s your name?”

         

“Tim. Tim Levitt.”

         

Fresh pain in his leg. Dave knew that name. That name was important for some reason. It hung in his mind, just out of reach. That name meant something. Tim Levitt was the name of someone he knew, surely, some friend he had lost touch with. It was fate that had brought them together tonight, to reminisce. They probably grew up on the same street, played GI Joe together; Tim probably had the Terrordrome and the USS Flagg. There were no flies in Tim’s house, no green chairs, no dusty reckonings in colloidal basement air. Tim’s mom brought them lemonade and peanut butter sandwiches. No flies in the sandwiches, none floating tortile in the lemonade. Tim was Joe, Dave was COBRA, launching the Firebat from its central dock on the Terrordrome. Flies swarmed after the Firebat toward the Flagg, flies dove with the vessel’s payload, kamikazes, to splat on the broad grey deck. Pulpy fly bodies covered the deck of the ship, a writhing hairy black layer. No planes could land. The lemonade was yellow but not lemonade. Mayonnaise on the sandwiches for no good reason. There were flies here, flies all the time. Dave knew that name. Tim Levitt. Tim Left It. Tim, Leave.

 

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Drew’s genitals still felt soft and shapeless, and he wanted to feel for damage but was afraid to touch something that seemed so fragile. The pain had settled where his stomach met his pelvis. He thought it likely he would never have children now.

         

 The voice from the first phone call, before Dick had arrived in the library, had told Drew to read the Handbook of someone named Joanie McKittrick, which Handbook he now had stuffed in a cargo pocket, banging against his knee; but while had been searching for that volume he had also found the one marked RICHARD MCGIBBON and had not been able to pass up the opportunity to read it. And so that had resulted in his smashed testicles, so lesson learned.

         

What that second phone call was about, Drew didn’t know, but he figured he’d let Dick deal with it. Drew now had to focus on finding some safe place to read McKittrick’s Handbook and figure out what to do next. (What he really wanted to do was to seal up the hole in 79A and forget all this ever happened, but he had stumbled into something now for sure and it didn’t seem like getting out was an option just yet.)

         

Drew scaled the ladder and traversed the rope and crawled through the tunnel back to 79A. He took his own handbook out of his pocket, found the entry for “Hiding places” in the index and turned to page 59:

 

The UNWG campus, the Family Delmonico in particular, affords the reclusive student a number of secluded cubbies and nooks in which to secret him or herself for reasons of security or simply to enjoy some well-earned solitude. A partial list of such hideyholes follows*:

 

MARY RUTHERFORD HALL:

1. The Van Zandt Stairway – A false wall in the north wing of the 2nd floor provides access to a hidden stair, which in turn leads to a little-used closet in the basement of Miss R. “Little-used” does not mean “never used,” however, particularly if the custodian needs the wet/dry vac (which she frequently does after home football games).

 

2. Room 126, aka The South’s Lunch Shall Rise Again Room – The historically-preserved bedroom where Robert E. Lee once recovered from a spell of botulism is officially off-limits to students, which makes it a particularly good place to hide, if you are not averse to a little risk. Dim, period-appropriate lighting, bulky furniture and privacy curtains (which kept prying eyes from alighting on the ailing General) only add to the eremitic appeal.

 

3. The Pi Floor – Probably does not actually exist, but if you’re desperate, you’re welcome to try; maybe you’ll get lucky. According to famed architect Moll Rankerson, one may reach the Pi Floor by entering the third-floor bathroom by the north door and exiting from the south door.  Good luck.

 

HAYES HALL

Oy, where to begin? This eyesore is nothing but hiding places and secret corridors. Really, just wait till one of the halls clears out and start yanking on light fixtures; you’re bound to stumble into something suitable.

 

WINTERTREE HALL

1. The Auditorium – The network of dressing and storage rooms above and behind the stage are perfect places to “run lines” with a paramour or experiment with makeup and tights. For more privacy, try the catwalk (not recommended for vertigo sufferers).

 

2. The Sub-Laundry Room – The room under the main laundry room is kept empty due to the noise and tremors produced by the machines. If you can find your way into this room, you’ll be rewarded with such an ideal hermitage you may never wish to leave. (Hint: try doing your delicates in the farthest machine from the door on the north wall.)

 

3. The New Party Room – That’s right, 79A is not the only previously-inaccessible room in the dorm. If you don’t already know where this is, you’re obviously not one of the cool kids.

 

SLUKE HALL

1. The Cupola – Unlike Mary Rutherford’s cupola, with its iron-barred door, Sluke’s is protected only by an easily picked lock. In addition to seclusion, provides a spectacular view of campus.

 

2. The Forbidden Balcony – Accessible only from a window in Room 319. The residents’ friendship can be bought with Goldschläger. Did you know that the gold flakes in Goldschläger can cut tiny holes in your esophagus? Of course you didn’t, because it’s not true. But tell the Ukrainian girls in 319 that and watch them freak out.(Also, there’s deer blood in Jägermeister, but you already know that.)

 

3. The Sluke Pi Floor – Unlike its Mary Rutherford counterpart, this is one is empirically real. Same rules apply, just switch east and west for north and south. But be careful. The Floor is a bit like Mt. Everest, in that a fair percentage of those who visit never come back.

 

Interestingly, Sluke does not have a Van Zandt Stairway, as Molly Rankerson was unaware of its presence in Mary Rutherford. Instead, she just put a pillar of solid concrete where the stairway should be. But it’s possible that some enterprising Diplomatic Training students might have hollowed out that pillar and created a new place to hide in there, and may have also used it to cache an impressive and profitable collection of contraband.

 

*Be advised: Many of these places are known to most if not all of your fellow students, and you may be easily discovered (or you may be the one to discover a fellow already ensconced). If you truly wish to disappear, you may want to seek advice from someone else’s Handbook, were you to have access to such a thing.

 

Should have just read the footnote first, Drew thought. He stuffed the Handbook back in his pocket and pulled out McKittrick’s. A minute of guesswork found the entry for “Your secret place” in the index.

 

You find it the first week of school and never tell anyone else about it, not even Kenya. Before you left, your mom told you it was important to be social and meet new people, but it was just as important to find a place where you can be by yourself and be yourself. This place is exactly that.

         

There’s an elevator in Thorn Hall—the oldest elevator in Georgia, in fact, but almost no one knows about it because it’s behind an unmarked door that everyone assumes is a custodial closet. But the elevator is there, and it still works, and it goes to places in Thorn that the stairs don’t. The sub-basement, for instance, which houses Anthony Delmonico’s collection of rare documents, now forgotten and mildewing.

         

But what you’re most interested in is the highest point on the elevator’s dial: the roof. The elevator terminates in the pedestal of the massive statue of Howard Thorn that watches over the Milligan Pass. The tall merlons of the battlement that extends around the roof shield you from the view of passersby. This alone makes it an ideal spot to escape the bustle of campus life.

         

The roof, however, is not only attractive for its seclusive qualities, but also for the mysteries of its decoration. The surface of the roof is covered in carved tiles which, when read in a clockwise spiral from the northwest corner of the roof, tell in pictures the life story of Anthony Delmonico. You’ll never finish reading the story.

 

 

© 2005 Gardner Linn